Sometimes I have to Walk Away

Today was tough. Not all day, but when I had to walk away. There are points in my life and marriage when I simply have to walk away. 
Being a youth pastor’s wife (and I’m sure, any ministerial wife) has its challenges. One of the challenges I am faced with occasionally is not know what to do, say, or think about something my husband is struggling with. Maybe it’s a message he has prepared and can’t seem to get to a good point in. Maybe it is church politics (every church has them). Maybe it is picking and choosing between church events and resting or going to family gatherings. The list could go on forever. 

So many times I wonder what he wants me to say, think, or do. Many times I try to gauge if he needs me to build him up or put him in his place. Should I point out that he is being ridiculous? Am I suppose to continue to compliment his 3 point message with its alliteration? How does he expect me to respond to this? 

Today, I didn’t know what else to tell him. I didn’t know how else to help. I simply had to walk away. I grabbed my pool bag and a book (Wonder Struck by Margaret Feinberg) and left. Not out of anger or even frustration, but because he needed a day to just sit, think, pray, contemplate, seek advice, … A day to just be. 

I hate walking away, but more than that I hate watching him struggle. I want to help him fix it. I want to be his friend, helper, soulmate. But today I couldn’t help any more than I had tried. 

It’s hard, marriage that is. 
I’m back at home now. About to eat dinner with my sweet husband. I hope and pray he is in a better place, but know that either way, God will take care of him even when I don’t know how to. 

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2 thoughts on “Sometimes I have to Walk Away

  1. Rachel says:

    Love this Danielle. Sometimes we just have to do just that. Walk away. But it’s hard to do when you just want to fix it. But God can and will always gain glory from His work. Love you both much!

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  2. Patricia Dorsey says:

    The longer you’re married to your soul mate, the more times you’ll understand his emotional and spiritual needs. Even more so if you’re joined with a Godly Youth Pastor. I could tell when my husband had a business call that didn’t go well or he’s having some computer issues. We are their helpmates and must be constantly aware of what is going on in his mind and life. It’s tough but well worth it all. To God be the Glory! In our case, forty-one years and still blessing each other! You will, too.

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