When Kyle and I first married, we were always asked So when are you having kids? We would smile, laugh, and say We are on the five year plan. We wanted to have time as a married couple to enjoy our time and figure out how our lives were going to mesh. We each had dreams of what we wanted to accomplish before kids. A master’s degree for me, college and a full time job for him, traveling…Life!
About two years into our marriage my heart began to change. I was in a Christmas production at church as Mary and had the blessing of holding a friend’s baby (Jesus) during the show. I instantly wanted a baby of my own. I wanted little fingers to grab my pinkie. I wanted a sweet face to smile back at me. Don’t get me wrong…I know it isn’t all perfect and there are many other sides of a life with a baby, but my heart had a new desire. A desire to become a mom.
Kyle and I talked and he still wasn’t ready. I had just started my master’s. He was no where near done with school. We had only been married for two years. What happened to the five year plan?
All I asked was that Kyle pray about it, read the bible, and let me know when he was ready.
“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4